Alyssa made him feel like he had a life ahead of him.

Back then, before all that went down, he was convinced Alyssa was who he should have been with all along.

Alyssa Grant. She was Wayne’s long-time mistress when he was married to Melinda. When it all blew up, Alyssa dumped him and Melinda divorced him.
Back then, before all that went down, he was convinced Alyssa was who he should have been with all along — figuratively, as Alyssa would have been fourteen when he married Melinda — Alyssa was twentyish when he met her — he loved Alyssa more than anything. It was how he felt with Melinda those first couple years, before marriage and dulldom and the girls came along. Alyssa made him feel like he had a life ahead of him.

From Wayne the Ex-Cop